The one and only Dindon of Steel

Well again we meet today, how nice isn't? Well well well, what will I say again today? How good it's getting? Yesss people, I'm getting back on track, my head stopped paranoying with all that mysterie behavior my so called ex got caught with. And now I may breathe and live again peacefully. I know I'm well protected... in very good hands my dear's.... hmmm hmmm miumm ?? loool

Well I think I'm a bit over joyfull today.... even do my between hurts...loool Je ne ferais pas la procreation de ma race cette semaine... surement pas !!! LOOL Maudit horsy NJ...loool CKoi ce name la for a horse??? Freak! Un cheval retraite de la ''GRC'' ma te dire que ça fait mal quand t'es dessus pis qu'il decide de ce coucher pour se gratter... il me manque la moitie d'un coude...Oui j'exagere mais sibole sa fait MAL!!! lool And for what's with the between's well figure out that it's a bonny part heun, and that le galop and the run makes you bounce baby bounce... OUCH!

Well that's enough for now... See ya tonight!

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I'm getting there. Last night i was capable of getting a bit of sleep. I partially was awake, nothing too deep, but still it was nice to be able to zzz a little. Better just a bunch, then nothing at all isn't? Enfin bref; Ce matin durant ma pause.. et oui mes cours on recommencee, dans la cafe j'entendais parler des evenements survenus durant les semaines.... Comment rester de marbres lorsque l'on entend marmoner sur le sujet auquel vous auriez pus etre?? Pas evident de garder la tete froide dans une telle situation. J'ai donc decidee de partir et de rentrer chez moi. En plans ce soir.... Travailler... Et si mon gentleman garde promesse a ma maman, je devrais aller au cine avec lui. Mais bon... On verras bien...

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Depuis mercredi, ceux qui me comtois on pu remarquer un changement majeur dans mon attitude. Comprennez moi, ma vie c'est temps ci, est loin d'etre compreehensible.... J'ai a peine moi-meme, a me comprendre. Peut-etre ne suis-je que dans un mauvais reves, mais que je ne m'y reveillerai pas... C'est vraiment bizarre. Je flotte? Non, je suis perturbee. Je suis psycologiquement affaiblie par un traumatisme fortement troublent. Le manque de sommeil et de securitee seras affectee. La confiance envers les hommes aussi...malheureusement pour ceux qui sont honnetes et sans mauvaise intentions.

Bon je vous laisse, le besoin de me taire se fait sentir... j'ai envie d'etre seule.... bonne nuit

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Hier soir c'était l'anniversaire de deux êtres qui me sont très précieux. Il y a eu mon père, cet éternel héros à mes yeux et dans mon coeur. Ainsi qu'une toute nouvelle amie, pourrais-je même dire soeur? Je ne sais pas encore, mais je l'apprécie déjà énormément cette petite Izo! ;o)

Enfin ce soir, j'ai parlé de ce qui me troublais. Au fait le tous nous troublais pas mal, l'inconfort devrais-je/ ne devrais-je pas dire, était présent dans l'atmosphère. Mais heureusement j'ai fait le premier pas. De peine et misère, calmement. Et pour tout dire, tout c'est bien déroulé. J'hose même dire que c'était agréable. Après quelques instant le tout c'est éclairer. Nous avons mangé le gâteau des fêters, bues quelques verres. Plus tard dans la soirée, izo et moi avons continuée à se que j'appel, dévellopée notre complicitées. Nous avons élaboré sur la fameuse soirée ''saturday night''. Nous avons parlé de nos hommes, de nos lectures ( HAHA Putain, t'es plâte Arcand!!!! lool hein Izo??) Puis après les douzes coups de minuit....loool UP DODO !!!

Finalement je dois admettre, presque, publiquement que je l'aime c'te belle soeur là... ! ;o) Bonne Nuit Troupes!

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There's something wrong.... maybe I'm paranoyed.... I don't know, but something defenetly changed

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I'll be there when you're sleepin'
and every hour you're awake
I wann hear your secrets--
wanna share your worries
Wanna go the deepest--
I don't wanna hurry
I wanna take a lifetime to
memorize your face
Wanna hold you closer--kiss you longer
Wanna hear your heartbeat--
stronger and stronger

Wanna know you all over
Till I know you be heart
Gotta know you with all that I got


I wanna know you that good!
Like no one knows you
Gonna reach way down deep in your mind
I wanna get to know you--
wanna get to know you
Wanna get to know you that good

Gonna know you right through
You know I want to
So badly it hurts all the time
I wanna get to know you--
wanna get to know you
Wanna get to know you that good
Yeah, I wanna know you that good

Every feel of your fingers-
every curl in your hair
Don't wanna miss a minute--
wanna be right in it
Do everything you're doin'--
go everywhere you're goin'

Wanna know you all over
Till I know you by heart
Gotta know you with all that I got



I wanna know you that good
Wanna know your emotions--
wanna taste every tear
Wanna hear you breathin'--
feel what your feelin'
I wanna get to know
Know you that good!
Like no one knows you
Gonna reach way down deep in your mind
I wanna get to know you--
wanna get to know
I wanna get to know you--
wanna get to know
Wanna get to know you
To know you
I wanna know you by heart
I wanna know you that good

Wanna get to know you...that good - Shania Twain

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I'm sorry for everything i've said
And for anything i forgot to say too
When things get so complicated
I stumble, at best muddle through


I wish our lives could be so simple
I don't want the world, only you
Oh, i wish i could tell you this face to face
But there's never the time, never the place
And this letter will have to do
I love you

Amneri's Letter - Shania Twain

Posted by the dindon of steel at 12:06:00 p.m. | Permalink

Une nouvelle semaine commence; Comment seras cette dernière? Je n'en sais rien. Ce matin, je me suis levée en espérant pouvoir sourire sans aucun ironie. J'ai envie de rire et de danser, de chanter à plein poumon. Hier en soirée, un spécial de 2hrs avec Shania Twain sur les ondes de musimax .... Elle m'a fait pleuré, elle m'a fait rire.... elle m'a surtout fait réfléchir. Je dois respect à cette grande artiste... Elle m'a éclairée de cette fin de semaine sombre et banal... Je n'en veux plus à personne, je ne suis plus fâché.... La haîne s'est dispercée.... Où? Je ne sais pas, comment? Je ne peux pas plus vous le dire. Des explications? Non merci! Des excuses? Encore moins. La pitié? N'y pensée même pas!!

---------->You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe
In everything that I could be
I've gotta say--you really got a way

---------->You've got a way it seems
You gave me faith to find my dreams
You'll never know just what that means
Can't you see... you got a way with me

---------->It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what Iove's made of
It's in the way we make love

---------->You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me

---------->It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what Iove's made of
It's in the way we make love

---------->Oh, how I adore you
Like no one before you
I love you just the way you are

---------->It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what Iove's made of
It's in the way we make love

---------->It's just the way you are

You got a way - Shania Twain

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Finalement, la discution c'est éteinte avec mon entrée dans la cuisine...l'hypocrésie est toujours plus forte lorsqu'on essaie de prendre les autres pour des cons.... ou connes dans ma situation. Enfin, devrais-je dire que je suis extrêmement déçus de la tournure des évènements... J'aimerais tellement les frappés pour leurs montrés comment enragée je peux me sentir en ce moment en leurs égards.... Mais ce m'est impossible... J'aimerais être fâchée contre celui que j'aime le plus.... Mais hélas ça m'est tout aussi impossible. Je l'aime, et je l'aime vraiment... Même un tel coup ne peux me rendre assé agressive pour le haïr autant que je l'ai haïe eux...

Je ne sais pas pourquoi je ne lui en veux pratiquement pas, mais je lui en veux d'une certaine façon. Désolant pour moi que je ne puisse moi-même en dire plus. La seule chose que je peux vous confirmer, c'est qu'ils le seront fort difficile de regagner mes sourires.... Sur ce; bonne soirée.

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Hmmm a nice evening in perspective.... There's a fresh flow of hate, a fresh and distant atmospher's queen of the night. Les gens ici ce soir, sont hypocrite à leur maximum... Je vous reviens une discution prend vie loin d'ici

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Okay! Here we go. I'm going to try this one now! hehe Hopefully it will end up longer and will have more sense then the other ones.

Let's see, how should I begin?? I have no idea of what to say. Hmm FALSE... I know exactly the subject of this first real blog... Yesterday!!!! For some of the few lot's to whom I'm left unknown, I'm not ( well I don't think so ) as a bitch as it will seem to you in the futur lines that you'll be reading. Are you ready to rumbbbbbbbbbbble ?!?!?!?

Here we go ------> Woke up it was seven, I waited till nine, then I stood up for myself cause nothing was going right. My day was going like a piece of shit. Anyhow, I managed to keep myself concentrate and think for a better evening. Finally; Once out of this partially so called hell, I received a sms on my phone... Something that made me smile, someone had think of me for an activity that I love, seeing the fireworks. Not only it was for fireworks, but also in company of people I like; my brother , the girlfriend , a guy and one that I adore and who doesn't know's a deaf or maybe to the limit blind, superman Anyways.... Those beloved ones had the gut's to leave me there, in the middle of Berry Uquam until I decided it was enough waiting.... After an hour, I left the place.... Pissed off like I never knew I could be.... Once out of the underground, I finally got a grip on them... They were ''chillin' '' at Joe's place like nothing was.... That made me even more pissed. ''Awww we're sorry...." Blah Blah, Blah Blah, Blah Blah, Blah Blah. That's what, it sounds like you said to me. Yeah so that's about it. Ended up that those shitty bastards (yes you see clearly) (yet to be change when I'll be cooled off) we're at the guy's house.... DRINKING all together like moron's Then got back on the road, cause NO ONE, was willing to come and pick me up.... Imagine how long they've fooled me.... So I hung up the phone on BLUESUN and tried to breathe in and out slowly.... It was VERY hard to stay coolheaded when your stuck in a bus, as full as it can be and try not to scream the hell at of you. Once back home, I sat down in the stairway and cooled off..... A BIT....

Well after a couple of hours... It happened it was the next day, wich is today. And I'm now getting the shit out of me.... On this wonderfull site.... How pleasant, isn't GUY'S? Well, I'm not sure there, but I think I'm done... Hmm almost, but that's it for now... Wouldn't want to right something ( cause words fly away but print's stays ) I'd be ending up regretting.... Maybe I'm not as a bitch afterall....

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